Hump Day!

It's half way through the week!!! I can't believe how hot it has become down here, especially in our apartment. It is 80 and it won't get any cooler. I think that we have a problem with AC. What do you think?

The beginning of this week has been a hard week. Sunday was Baby Connor's 2 month anniversary, which was a hard day but I got through it. It is so good to have Brett around more!! It has really helped me to heal and not be alone at night, especially when that is the hardest time of the day. On Monday I had a migraine. I hate them. They knock you out for a day or so. I'm feeling better today, but it's very scary and it is all because of stress, wish I didn't have stress in my life. I was doing so well. I hate having set backs because they make my mind go crazy! I have learned that I'm having a normal reaction to an abnormal situation. I'm hoping that the rest of the week is better than the beginning.

I hope everyone had a good hump day! Goodnight!

Love you Baby Connor!!!

Erika

Two Months Ago

I can't believe that it has been two months since we lost Connor. This wasn't suppose to happen. We should be in Mattapoisett showing off our baby boy but instead I'm sitting here working on a scrapbook for my baby who will never get to see it. Life isn't fair.

So the goal for today is to stay busy to keep my mind off of things until Brett gets home!!!!

I love you Connor!!!!

Thank goodness it is the weekend! I absolutely love the weekends, who doesn't? Brett has to work both days! Yes I said days! I'm so excited that he has switched from nights, it has been really nice to have him home!

This week has been a very long week. On Monday I had a doctor's appointment to get lots of blood drawn for more testing. They took 16 tubes of blood from me, but I was a really good girl and sat there the whole time, not looking but dealing with it! I don't like anything to do with needles, but after everything that I have gone through it is the least of my worries now. After we were done with the doctor's office we headed to Ted's Montana for an early dinner. We actually had our first date there! It was good! We also had our support group. I have met some amazing people who have made feel that everything I'm going through is normal and that I'm not going crazy, because I do think that is true! Thank you!!!

Now we just have to wait for the results from the blood work to come back! They said that it would take a week and half. So hopefully we will know something by the end of this week and we will be able to go from there!

I really need to get my day started! I wish the sun would come out. I'm going to go get my to do's done so that I'm ready when the sun does come out I'm ready to hit the pool!

I miss you Baby Connor! Not a moment goes by that I don't think of you. I wish you where here with us! I love you always and forever!!!!

Have a great weekend!