Back to School!

Back to school for Baby Mitchell tomorrow. Well actually he isn't a baby anymore! I can't believe that he will be a senior this year! Time flies. I will post pictures tomorrow from the first day!!

On another note, one year ago today was when I found out that I was pregnant with Connor. Has it really been a year? I wish he was here with us! My goal this weekend is to get plants for the cemetery. I don't like how he doesn't have anything. I just need to figure out what will go well up there and plant them with Brett's help of course!

Ok off to bed. I have had a really bad headache all day. Didn't even go to yoga tonight! Will try it out on Thursday. Need to get up early tomorrow to switch our license plates to Massachusetts! After tomorrow we will officially be MA residents!!!!

Have a good night!

Love,

Erika

Another Fun Weekend!

I love weekends! Who doesn't!!!! We had a good weekend. Weather wasn't suppose to be nice but it turned out to be a beautiful weekend! Friday night I picked up a shift at the restaurant that I use to work at. Saturday morning was spent running errands and then at the beach in the afternoon. Saturday night we went to my Godfather's house for dinner. Everything was so good! I made homemade chocolate chip cookie ice cream sandwiches. They were wonderful!! Today my good friend Andrea from college came to visit! We went to my uncles pool where it was beautiful. We had a blast!!! Tonight was just Mitchell, Brett and I for dinner, so I made grilled chicken and corn on the cob. We then went for a nice bike ride around town.

I love Sundays! I start working tomorrow, well actually its just orientation but I'm looking forward to it but have anxiety about it too. Ok so this is a quick post since I have to finish filling out paperwork and then find something to wear. I went shopping this past week because all my work clothes were maternity and I haven't lost all the weight yet so I can wear pre pregnancy clothes. It sucks!!!!!!!! But love getting new clothes!!

I hope everyone had a good weekend. Have a g'night and I will update in the next couple of days about my new job!! Wish me luck!

Back to Reality!

Back to reality on Monday. I got a full time job working at my old job before I moved to Georgia. I'm looking forward to it. Just wish that I could have waited a couple more weeks or maybe a couple of years!!!! Someday I will be able to be the stay at home mom I have always wanted to be.. I just wish it was now with Connor.

I love being in Mattapoisett and I hope Brett loves it too. I feel that this move has been great therapy for me. I don't always have the time that I had in Georgia to think about things. Here I'm busy and there is always people around to keep me occupied. My mind still races of what ifs, what if Connor was here, what would I be doing. Would we even be here? I hate that all of his stuff is in storage except for one bin that I keep with me. I miss seeing his crib all set up. I hope someday it will be put to good use. I know Connor would like that. I miss him so much and my heart just feels so heavy at times. I miss going to my support group. We found one up here but missed the August Meeting so we will have to wait for September.

We celebrated our 1st wedding anniversary this past Sunday. We had to drive my sister back to school with my parents in the morning, but then Brett and I came home so that we could go out to dinner. We had a very nice dinner at Not Your Average Joe's. This weekend we are going to go to Newport to celebrate. We were going to go back to Martha's Vineyard where we had our honeymoon but thought we should go somewhere different. As much as I enjoyed our 1st anniversary something was missing, actually someone was missing, our Baby Connor. He was suppose to be here. Our wedding night is actually the night we conceived Connor. Brett thinks it was our honeymoon, but I know deep down in my heart that it was that night. I can't believe that it has been a year since then. Time flies.

Ok so I have been rambling and I'm all over the place. Time to make dinner! Have a good night!